If it was so great, why was I no longer doing it? Why did I allow my weight to go back up again? Why did I go silent on my blog for five months?
The bottom line is that I had gotten discouraged and I was not willing to do what it takes to lose the weight to the point that I become hopeless and resigned about it. My man had even taken to eating better recently. And while I was cheering him on outside, I noticed that I was becoming bitter and hardened about it- and I know that bitter is NEVER good. I was becoming hopeless and just accepting that this was just the way that it was going to be: Angie was just meant to weigh 200+
While I understand that I am ultimately responsible and I have the body that I have based on the choices that I have made over time, it was important that I take a look at this so that I can learn from it and not duplicate it later.
"But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called “Today,” so that none of you may be hardened by sin’s deceitfulness." Hebrews 3:13
“Student says I am very discouraged. What should I do? Master says, encourage others.” Zen Proverb
Sin = whatever gets in the way and keeps you from your Purpose and reflecting God
So let's unpack a bit. I had stumbled in my eating habits. It was getting difficult having to have to prepare different meals for myself and the rest of the family. I had stopped encouraging others. I had allowed the sin of bitterness and resignation to set in. I went silent on my blog so that no one would know. I was getting further way from God during this time as a result and not talking to Him about my Purpose.
The lie that I was buying into was that this was the way that it was meant to be. But here's the thing. I do not believe that God would actually want me to weigh that much and have the dis-ease that comes along with it. But once you let bitterness take even the smallest root, you'll start to believe crazy things and throw your hands in the air and say, "Oh well. I didn't want it anyway."
Well honey, none of us are meant to have anything less than life abundantly.
While I may have fallen- again, I have only failed if I choose not to get back up - again.
Sounds great- but what does that look like applied? Well, I need to encourage others. Not only my hubba hubba but you as well through this post and sharing about it. Knowing how awesome raw whole foods are for our bodies and the healing effect that they have, I have selected Ani Phyo's 15 Day Fat Blast for my man and I to do together so that we can encourage each other. And it also includes receiving a heaping does of grace for myself and not listen to the voice in my head that says that I suck for falling- again- while loving myself enough to want everything that I was purposed for.
I don't know what you may have become discouraged, resigned, hopeless, or bitter about but if there is a remnant of Hope in there, and I believe that there is, do a 180 and find someone to encourage in that area. I promise that you'll see a difference and you'll be that much closer to living in alignment with God and His purpose for you.