So here we are- two years after I originally started this blog. Some things couldn't be any more different while some things...are oh so familiar.
Where have I been? Well, I have been working with my husband Drew in reconciling our marriage, rebuilding our family, and getting straight about our faith and our purpose in life. It has been incredible. It has been surreal. It has been frightening as ever. It has been...life changing.
It has also had my weight return to the very same starting point as two years ago. I sit here about to write and again I feel that same fear welling up inside of me. But now, I have to face the fact of the matter that I had lost 30lbs then... and have gained every single pound back. Some would say that it was a failure- and in regards to the weight loss, they would be correct. I say that it has given me an opportunity. An opportunity to do it with a little (a lot) of help from above and with my husband as my partner.
I'll be sharing more about how the reconciliation came about, and how we did it, at a later time. Right now, it is just important that I take this step. This first step...again. Looking fear square in the eye and saying, "Not today. Not today you don't."
Over the past couple of years, I have seen more and more that I truly show up when it isn't about me. See, I made my challenge with my weight and sugar issues my issue and mine alone. But this time, I am being called to do it for a difference reason.
Yes, I am to attain a healthy lifestyle and experience abundant health- but only so that I can inspire, encourage, and support others in the same.
So I am asking you to join me. Whether it is weight issues, an addiction, a desire deep in your being that you have been holding on to for so long but fear has its grip on you, join in and come nose to nose with fear. Don't worry. You're not alone. We're going through this together. What is important is that you take that first step. Right here. Right now. Look it square in the eye and say aloud, "Not today, Fear. Not today you don't."
Thank you God for showing me all that you have over the past two years. I could not have achieved what I am about to without it. I'm ready. You rock my socks.