Last night was the first workshop that I got to do that was 100% mine. The concept, the content, the delivery, the deep feeling of it tingling your body with satisfaction- all mine. It was the first time that there was no sponsor, no one had paid me to come talk on a particular topic (though I LOVE doing that too), and I wasn't told to do it- it was something that I have desired to do for some time and I had declared that I am not waiting anymore.
Earlier this week, I was thinking and exploring the notions of vulnerability, courage, and desires. This bubbled up and I posted on Facebook, "For those who have deemed me Courageous: The ancient root of the word "courage" is cor, which in Latin refers to the heart. Courage is to do something with your WHOLE heart. To be scared, admit the fear, and press on anyway. Thank you for loving me when I embrace my vulnerablilty. It is the birthplace of joy, love, and creativity." The part that I had left out was about the desire.
Listen- I am talking desires, not wants. There is a difference. I had drawn a line in the sand earlier this year and started I'm Not Weighting Anymore. It is about the physical weight but that physical weight was the manifestation of the other things that I had been carrying around. I had been doing the things that I thought that I "should" and not even voicing my desires. On January 18 of this year that stopped- and here we are.
My desire was to make a difference in the world. To make a difference with you. My desire is to step into my essence and influence others to do the same. See, when you acknowledge your genius and live your life from there- leaning into your desires- you become desired. And that is sexy!
Speaking of sexy, what is it anyhow? Is it the blonde in the centerfold who is 34-24-36? Is it the hairless man with the chiseled jawline? No. Not any of that. It's not the smokin' hot shoes- it's being ABLE to walk in those smokin' hot shoes. It is being COURAGEOUS and living into your DESIRES. There is nothing reasonable about it. It is compassion and acknowledging the genius in others when you see it and supporting them in achieving their desires. It is geting out of your way so that You can show up.
And you know what? It has nothing to do with a size, weight, hair color, or what kind of car that you drive! Come on, Gorgeous. The world is waiting for you. I am waiting for you. Go be sexy today.