As business owners, we face a tremendous amount of concern, worry, risk, and it all boils down to fear.  Folks sometimes see us as being fearless, big risk takers, or even sometimes reckless.  Lord knows that I have been described as those several times.  Please know that we do feel fear.  We do get restless and wonder "Will this work?"- especially when there aren't any back up plans.  And sometimes, the lack of backup plans is the catalyst for us having the perspective that "It's just got to work!".

Just like every other human being on this planet, I experience fear.  Over the years I have found ways to manage it so that it doesn't manage me; however, there are still things in this worked that scares me to death.  If you have followed I'm Not Weighting Anymore, then you know that I had to deal with a great deal of fear about facing my weight for the first time in a public forum.  For most of us, a huge amount of our fears are all wrapped up inside of The Fear of Looking Bad.

So last night I was awaken by my lil guy who had an accident in the middle of the night.  After I got him cleaned up and back into warm jammies, I slid back into bed with my mind suddenly racing, churning, rolling, tugging and pulling this way and that.  All that was on my mind was "How am I going to do this?". 

Back story:  My husband and I are separating and the kids and I are moving out.  No drama involved and what drama is there is at a minimum at best.  I have only recently jettisoned my good corporate job and my current income can not sustain us.  I am going to have to be manifesting like a mo' fo'.

Fast forward back this morning at 2:30am .  It looked a little something like this --> What am I doing?  How stupid am I?  I mean, there isn't even a back up plan in place, Ang.  Maybe I can do this, maybe I can do that.  Stop it.  You are coming from a place of scarcity and nothing good come from that.  But what if no one likes it or buys it?  What if I don't put food on the table?  What if, what if, what if?

What if I don't?  Then I don't.  But what if I do?  I remembered Dyana Valentine's video about surviving.  I remind myself about what I say about failure and instead of asking what if I fail, what if I don't.

When we are in this space, it is crucial that we find love for ourselves.  We need to allow ourselves grace to make a few mistakes and give ourselves permission in many areas.  Danielle LaPorte just published this today and it was just what I needed (funny, that was also the case with Dyana'a video).  It will be ok that my lil guy sleeps with me until I get him his own bed.  It is perfect that we will be eating on paper plates for a bit until I get a new set.  And it is even alright that I don't have a plan cemented for revenue streams at this very moment. 

On any given day, in any given moment, something could happen that opens up for you an entirely new path.  Be still, be alert, be ready.  ~Marianne Williamson

When I spoke of my fear to Mama Gena today, she asked me "What do you DESIRE?"  I answered that I desire for my business to THRIVE.  See, when I win, you win.  And when you win, I win.  It stimulates a thriving community that is brought on by full self expression.

I do hope that whatever fears that you may have that don't make yourself wrong for having them.  You are human.  And as a human being, your sole purpose here on Earth is to love.  Period.  So get busy loving yourself and allowing yourself some grace.  I'm gonna start looking at how I can express my love for my community through my work and make our world a better place.

Danielle, Dyana, Marianne, and Mama, thank you for unknowingly guiding me. 
 
 
I am hearing everyone pitching "How to Overcome Your Fears" or "Conquer the Unknown" and a host of other self-help titles around fear. Here's the thing (I'm going piss off some folks in my field with this) You can not make fear disappear.  And, the likelihood of you going at it alone and making that fear your bitch it damn hard- at best.

To add insult to injury, when you check these folks out who want you to shell out a shit ton of cash for their 12 Steps to Fearless Freedom, it turns out to be the slimy guy that you saw last weekend at the car dealership.  Or they are the wife living in California who has always lived in the land of Suburbia and hasn't lived much of life or even gets what living really is anyhow. 

Short and sweet- the fear is not going anywhere.  Deal with it.   You can quiver in the corner and go on to some pity party but that is not going to get you anywhere.  You want to achieve something but you are scared?  Suck it up.  You're afraid of looking dumb?  Well, you might.  And you may still end up doing amazing shit while being absofuckinglutely brilliant, but looking dumb, in the process.

Here's the deal:  Our world is in a heap of trouble.  Whether your sights are on your hyperlocal community, your hometown, national education issues, The Detroit Renaissance, Haiti, Egypt, or where ever, things are not going to shift by all of us getting stopped by our fear.  Your fear is not going anywhere.  So fuque it.  You can go and do what you need to do and come back to handle it later. 

Oh wait.  You mean, after you stopped letting it stop you then it headed for the hills by the time that you come back for it?  Look again.  The fear is still there.  It is just choosing to go by a different name.  Or it could be the same name but is now in a different area of your life.  See- it's not going anywhere.  And those of us that move around in life as though fear is never present?  Oh it's there alright.  We just say "Fear?  Fuque it!" because we have other things to do.

*As I write this my life is turning upside down and is filled to the gills with uncertainty.  I am relocating after my husband and I have chosen to separate, my teenager is beyond pissed at the thought of  changing schools, and I am in the position of make it or break it with my business.  Every time that I have needed to deal with my fears, I have just done whatever there was to do.  So here it is again- scared as hell and looking for what there is to do to have a life and business that I am head over heels, completely mad about!  And you bet your sweet ass I have a coach- I don't have time to get stopped.

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Handle Yo Bidness is a series of four workshops that are live and in person.  No teleseminars, no webcasts.  They are intimate conversations that are real.

1. Make Your Inner Bitch Your Bitch*- You don't have to listen to her anymore when she tells you that you suck and you are going to fail anyhow. *not limited to women.

2. Tell Me Whatchu Want, Whatchu Really Really Want- No more "I don't know" Know what you ACTUALLY want to be/feel/have

3. Boundaries:  Use 'Em or Lose 'Em- Getting clear about what you are willing to do and what you will tolerate 

4. Put Up or Shut Up- Finding that illusive time for what you actually care about. The Un-Corporate version of time management.

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